I’ve been a little quiet when it comes to my spirit work, I had originally intended for it to be a standing monthly topic but life has been a little hectic. The rituals have been on going but the opportunity to write about them repeatedly failed to present itself as other topics came to the fore. Given that this was because of how things were kicking off in this specific area of my life I decided an irregular round up was no bad thing as it gave me time to reflect on my experience so far.
What’s Gone Well
Well my intuition has been ringing like a bell in recent months, from warnings about things to come to prompting meeting new people. I won’t say I bimbled through life without insight or intuition until now but since starting this process things are cropping up more frequently and in sharper focus than ever before. I’ve misinterpreted a couple of things, and some of my margins of error are amusing in their telling, but my mistakes have been easily identifiable and corrected when things actually start happening.
Now that I seem to be developing an inner voice I want to move things up to the next level. I’ve had an abortive attempt at starting a tarot journal but it fell almost at the first hurdle. I don’t have enough to a grasp on the cards to be doing anything more than copying this by rote and that is totally not the point of this.
Another idea, a blinding bit of inspiration that came to me in a discussion on the subject of spare decks was to get a cork board and hang it above my altar and create a visual learning tool upon which to gaze every morning and night.
At its centre will be the card of the week with initially it’s meanings mind mapped upon the board, then decorated with associated images, personal insights etc. The board would then serve as a mini altar to the card so I can take at least one meditative journey into the card to be then written up in my journal.
I want to get this right because I found the Arcana game with its amazing art and designed tarot deck and when they finally come out as a deck (the designers have been hinting at it recently) I want to be able to hit the ground running with it.
What’s Not Quite Rite
I am not experiencing much in the way of in ritual manifestation, be that audio or visual. I am not disappointed by this, give the quick and dirty nature of my simplified method that sense of presence during and in the days after my rite are an acceptable (to me) sign of success. I know a lot of hard core grimourists wouldn’t accept that so I have to acknowledge that as a failing in my ritual.
Also, I’ve come to realise that my ritual does not involve a particularly strong sense of gratitude towards the spirit for acts performed. Incense and anointed candles are all well and good, but my eitual is very pact and command driven. I have been researching appropriate offerings for Purson and will be doing some divination work to make sure that everything I have identified is to the spirits liking.